it's really hard to describe my situation now. Feeling insecure, feeling small, feeling I am the outcast for the team, yet, I have some disagreement with the team, the way they do their work, and the thinkings towards the task. I have to follow, i feel that I should follow in the mean time, as I am still consider a new comer, a freshy team member for them. I can't have too many opinion, because I know very little in shoe making. When and where can I leak out my creativities, not now, NOT NOW... hate myself pick up the task too slow, hate myself have no bravery to work things out. orh... one thing i hate the most, i hate the journey to work, traffic jam kills.

love the job, as the prospect in this field is good, the prospect in my company isn't too bad if i can really stand out from the rest. Pay is bad, working hours is very long... but weird, as i don't really mind~ colleagues are "good" when power and work didn't involve. Boss is nice, but he tends to use the same technic to influence our thinkings. knowing myself, i really hate to be a copier... help~